DO YOU FEEL AS THOUGH YOUR MIND IS DWELLING IN CHAOS? Are you uncertain whether you’re coming or going and, if you are coming or going, what direction are you going and where have you been? Do you feel as though you’ve stepped into a world that doesn’t resemble the one you’ve lived in all your life and you have no idea where you are and who dropped you into this insanity without a bus pass to get back to where you were? Congratulations. You’re a Light Worker. (Light Worker: One who is attempting to shed light on any darkness or fallacy or lie.)

For years we’ve been doing our best to understand the concept that we create reality. The exterior world around us has continued on its “normal” path despite our best efforts to believe that we can change it. Earthquakes happen. Politics roll on, changing our world whether we agree or not. Domestic abuse continues right next door and at the children’s school right around the corner. Prices go up and emotions go down and we, as Light Workers, continue to do our best to understand how to make the world a better place while enduring the daily “evidence” that what we believe to be true is apparently not true. At least the evidence around us seems to contradict us.

What have we accomplished with our years of struggle to understand and believe? Our world is at war, our financial institutions are on a merry-go-round that we can’t keep up with, newspaper headlines scream statistics that seem to tell us we’re lying to ourselves, and, if you’re anything like the rest of us, our internal world, as well as our personal external world, seems to have descended into chaos and doubt as what we absolutely believe to be true is invalidated by what we are physically experiencing.

The bad news is that all of the chaos is really happening. You haven’t lost your mind and you’re not imagining all of this. The good news is that this is an indication that what we’ve always believed is true.

What? What did I just say?

You have every right to ask… and question my sanity for thinking, much less writing, such a statement.

The reality we have created, as an Earth-society, exists within a semi-solid block of energy. Our beliefs and the energy of our reactions and responses to this world have created the energy in which Earth resides. Imagine it this way. In the center of a huge circle sits Earth. All of the events, emotions, thoughts .. in short .. everything that has ever happened on Earth has created an energetic “blanket” around Earth. We are in the middle of the huge “circle of energy” that we have dispersed into the atmosphere around Earth.

Now, as we are changing our beliefs and our reactions, we are changing the energy of the “blanket” of energy surrounding us. From within ourselves, we are stirring the energies that surround us. The more of us who are determined to change and heal energies, the more “different” energies are introduced into our atmosphere and the “blanket” of energy surrounding Earth. We are the ones causing the chaos. Our determined efforts and energies of healing and transmuting for the purpose of changing life on Earth our impacting and disturbing, shaking up, the “block” of energy that has held Earth-society in its grip for centuries.

We have learned the Truth. We are creating reality. We are great Souls. We have the power to re-create our world. We have the power to claim our Truth and make it known. We have, for years, been building energy within ourselves, speaking only to ourselves and small groups, testing the ground to see if our theories have the ability to become solid beliefs and facts. Now the pressure of the energies we are creating within ourselves is building momentum and forcefully impacting the world around us. The “blanket” of energy around Earth is responding to the energy we are generating inside of ourselves.
There must be chaos in order to restore Divine Order.

Chaos is inevitable when a mass influx of “foreign” energy is introduced into an energy form that has been given validity and power for such a long period of time that it has taken on an almost-solid form. This energy has to be “broken up,” transmuted, healed, “re-formed.” Thoughts and intentions of healing and changing are impacting the “solidity” of the old reality, forcing it to “let go,” forcing the energy that surrounds Earth to “re-form” and support the beliefs of the “new” energy. The “new” energy is the energy of each of us drawing in the energy of Soul and creating thoughts and realities based upon Soul and what we know to be True.

If you are anything like most other Light Workers, you may have thoughts of giving up. You may wonder if you have gone off the deep end. As the world around us fights back, so to speak, struggling to resist the changes we insist are possible, we have instant denial of what it is that we’re trying to believe in. And we question ourselves in the face of this “reality”.

But now is the time to do exactly the opposite of what we feel inclined to do. We are making an impact. We are exhausted, we are weary, we want to admit defeat, accept that we can’t change this massive, massive hunk of energy/reality, and turn and walk away. But if we look at it from this point of view, that we have caused an entire world/reality to react and to “fight” against what we are trying to introduce to it, we are in the process of accomplishing something never before accomplished.

Because this “war” to change reality began within each of us, we are changed internally. We have changed our energy to the degree that the exterior world is now reacting. We are making an impact. Our struggle is no longer internal but external as well. That’s progress! This is not the time to give up!

What this is the time for (many of you may groan when you read this) is the next level of Soul-integration and understanding. As the world around us fights to maintain its power over us, each of us must find that next level of power within us. The Soul-integration process continues in “layers.” We have accomplished the peeling-off of many layers of veils and energies that have cloaked us from the Truth. At this time we are being asked to peel off yet another veil. Behind this veil is the Truth of why we allowed ourselves to live in ignorance and victimhood in the first place. Behind this veil is the Truth of our relationship to God and Soul. Behind this veil is the acceptance of the Truth of who we are. When this veil is removed, for each of us, we will no longer be capable of thinking and believing in ways that reflect anything other than the Truth of Soul and God. We will no longer be capable of lying to ourselves or others. We will no longer be capable of participating in anything that empowers the illusionary world of 3-D that operates without Truth. We will no longer be capable of enabling anyone or anything that is not operating in the vibration of God and Soul.

We will no longer be capable of being anything other than Soul.

It’s a huge responsibility. It’s a huge change.

It will take courage, strength, perseverance, belief, commitment, and other things that we probably do not have language to describe. Each of us will be taking a road never traveled before. It will be the road of Soul, a personal journey that will be unique from all others. As humans, we may not understand each other. As Soul, we can support each other.

To reach this veil that needs to be lifted, each of us will be called to know the origin of our Soul within ourselves. It is as though there has been a secret door sitting deep within us. We have not only left it closed, we have not even known that it exists. Now we have come upon this door. It’s a total surprise. We wonder what’s behind it. We sense that, if we open it, our lives will never be the same. We sense the power lurking behind the door, as if it alive. What will happen if we set it free by opening the door? We sense that this thing, this power, has enough power to change our entire world. We sense that we will never be the same once the secret is revealed. And our senses are correct.

Deep within each of us, behind this secret door, our Soul is waiting to reveal our Truth. It is waiting to tell us what is real and what is unreal. It is waiting to strip away the falsities and lies that we’ve lived in for centuries. Its power will take us over and we will never be able to lie to ourselves about what’s real again. Nor will we be able to calmly accept the lies from the world around us.

It’s a bold move to open this door but we have come too far to leave the door closed. We have impacted our world with our wish to live in a different world. The different world we want will be given birth within us. It’s waiting to be let out. None of us know what the results will be for the future has not been written. We have asked for the power to create in the moment and that is exactly what we we’re going to be given. How then can we know the future when it will be written in the instant thought?

The responsibility that lies with each of us is almost incomprehensible. As we have asked for the power, we have grown into the possibility of receiving what we’ve asked for. With a thought we can create an event. With a thought we can have an impact. The expression of Soul and the power of Soul are about to be unleashed into this reality. As we begin to impact the world around us in “new” ways, it is imperative that we impact it with the integrity of Soul. If we don’t, if every thought, reaction, and response, does not come from Soul, we will end up re-creating exactly what we now have… chaos.

Find the door to Soul and God that lives within you. Come to understand it and know it so intimately that you become Soul and God. Then show the world your Truth and allow that Truth to create the impact for you. We can re-create reality. We can succeed.

© 2003 Lauren Zimmerman

Illustration: Eagle in flight by Lauren Zimmerman